02119: "a quite troubled month with first the traveling to italy in and then all the distress caused by university situation which got me often awake in the middle of the night while beginning to dream but then getting better by watching movies with myrthe and latter august and starting not to think about work and getting a few sexual dreams being mostly afraid that myrthe has sex with others or that i make love to ugly girls mostly inspired by the movies we watched but also dreaming quite much about mountains and the native highland i have recently explored with also dreams regarding the selling of my grandparents' house there to which i am informed through my father in canada and several dreams fearing that i am forgetting to pick up my son or that i have abandoned him now that my future in sweden next him is very precarious"