04044: "a period of initial distress still undecided about my future in academia and also still potentially depressing due to the academic environment and the procedures that comes with it but really finding a good enthusiasm in developing further my work and reaching a higher perfection which however made me also quite much struggle with the interface design of my project but at last getting a bit of distraction and easiness from myrthe who came here and provided me a good emotional stability also with little august with whom i spent a lot of time after he pretended to be sick and in general again finding in the work for my project and a particularly in myrthe a peaceful ground particularly in our short visit to my parents roaming in the nice weather despite the family dentist removing a teeth and my mother getting violent with me and me getting violent with one of her rich friends insulting me at a dinner"