04076: "a month with troubles started with august small rebellion about being with his mother and me trying to get her straight and less drawn into her work learning from the writings of seneca which also got to control my emotions and being very stoic in my week spent in italy emptying the barn of all the rotten floor and feeling happy there of its people at last feeling sad to leave the barn and coming to the netherlands where i anyway kept very active and found my happiness again not without some issues with myrthe and later having a very happy small vacation with august"